Bill Blue gave a fascinating program on the parts of "The Greatest Story Ever Told" that was very insightful and entertaining. He told us the parts of a story and how all stories have similar structure.
Nan presented a program on Imagination from Returning To The Source by Wilson Van Dusen and shook up the usual rituals of the service. Everyone participated in both programs and attendance was up to par.
For over 30 years I have been joking about being kept awake at night by music and other sound phenomena that I can hear, but nobody else can. Today I heard a program on Public Radio that interviewed doctors or psychiatry and neurology who not only recognize this condition, but have a concrete name for it. It is called musical hallucination. First let me emphasize that many people have this same condition and hallucinating does not mean the same thing as mental illness.
At one time in history hallucination was not considered a medical term and people often deferred telling others of this phenomenon because they were afraid of some sort of punishment or retribution.
It seems that the brain not only hears what the ear reports - it also reports what it has heard to the ears as well. The ear-brain connection is a two way street. When there is a lot of outside noise the reporting subsides and the patient is free of music playing in her head. As quiet ensues, such as being alone or going to bed, the brain decides to send musical messages to the ears (consciousness). The interviewers talked about lullabies, hymns, religious music and so on. In my case I am forced to listen to The Grand Ole Opry and on occasion Lawrence Welk, and stage shows from the Indiana State Fair. My hallucinations are complete with guest performances, announcers, interviews, gospel quartets, and talented children singing or playing the violin. A real treat is performances by Caruso, Mario Lanza, Gallikurchi, and Pavarotti. Many of the tunes I hear are patriotic and often heard at parades and military affairs. All this music is the least liked in my list of favorite songs.
Personally I have a form of dislexia that improves if I memorize to music. As a child I wanted to be a professional singer and a star in my musical family. I memorized the lyrics to probably over 300 or 400 songs by listening to them over and over. Now, I can refresh my memory and sing almost any of those songs - having memorized the lyrics, melodies and rhythms in the past.
And that's not all! The other senses are also teased or alerted by a bored brain such as: smells, sensations of touch, parasites on the skin, perfume, and missing limbs replaced. I told the dental assistant last week I was not really afraid because angels were with me. I did not see or hear angels, but I could smell them all around. An outstanding example of this is the time I smelled elephants in downtown DeLand. I also frequently smell pipe tobacco, gardenias, roses, smoke, and cedar.
Except for losing sleep and not being able to change the station on my internal radio-brain, I am not bothered by the music. I can now stop blaming the house for possibly being haunted and other solutions I have tried to formulate to explain my great mystery. It is not necessary to have a brain injury or trauma to develop this condition.
I wanted to give this insight to my friends and family and encourage people who taste, smell, feel and hear strange things to be open to the meaning. Dr. Sachs believes his hallucinations are messages or warnings from his brain to help guide him through life. If so, I would appreciate a some genuine compliments (atta girl) and some really cool jazz.
This interview was originally broadcast on Nov. 16, 2013
In Oliver Sacks' book The Mind's Eye, the neurologist included an interesting footnote in a chapter about losing vision in one eye because of cancer that said: "In the '60s, during a period of experimenting with large doses of amphetamines, I experienced a different sort of vivid mental imagery."
He expands on this footnote in his book, Hallucinations, where he writes about various types of hallucinations — visions triggered by grief, brain injury, migraines, medications and neurological disorders.
One chapter of the book — that's out in paperback July 2 — deals with altered states and Sacks' personal experimentation with hallucinogenic and mind-altering drugs in the '60s. He says the first time he tried marijuana, it induced fascinating perceptual distortion. He was looking at his hand, and it appeared to be retreating from him, yet getting larger and larger.
"I was fascinated that one could have such perceptual changes, and also that they went with a certain feeling of significance, an almost numinous feeling. I'm strongly atheist by disposition, but nonetheless when this happened, I couldn't help thinking, 'That must be what the hand of God is like.' "
Sacks tells Fresh Air's Terry Gross that he has always been fascinated with hallucinations — from reading about Pip's hallucination of Miss Havisham in Charles Dickens' Great Expectations to witnessing hallucinations of every sort as a medical student and doctor. He had a personal interest in the phenomenon, he explains, because his brother was a schizophrenic — and "would talk with his hallucinations."
Sacks has also had his share of non-induced hallucinations. One day while mountain climbing, he experienced an auditory hallucination after an injury that tore most of his thigh muscle and dislocated his knee. His first impulse was to go to sleep — but then he heard a voice that he didn't recognize yet trusted.
" 'No, that would be death,' " he recalls it saying. " 'Go on. You've got to keep going. Find a pace you can keep up and keep it up.' And this was a very clear, commanding voice. It was a life voice, and it was not to be disobeyed."
Neurologically, Sacks speculates that this type of auditory hallucination is something that announces itself in extremity, and is "the ultimate safeguard, some power or propensity which has been built into the structure of the mind, the emotions," and is not heard by most people in their lives.
Sacks notes that the medicalization of hallucinations really only occurred in the 19th century — and that subsequent to that, there was much more anxiety, secrecy and shame about hallucinations.
"I think hallucinations need to be discussed," he says. "There are all sorts of hallucinations, and then many sorts which are OK, like the ones I think which most of us have in bed at night before we fall asleep, when we can see all sorts of patterns or faces and scenes."
With the ability to visualize the brain through cutting-edge medical technologies, Sacks believes, the scientist's sense of the brain's complexity has been increased; it's now possible to see exactly what's going on in the brain while people are hallucinating.
Interview Highlights
Oliver Sacks is a physician, author and professor of neurology at NYU School of Medicine. He also frequently contributes to The New Yorker.
"I had been reading about the color indigo, how it had been introduced into the spectrum by [Isaac] Newton rather late, and it seemed no two people quite agreed as to what indigo was, and I thought I would like to have an experience of indigo. And I built up a sort of pharmacological launchpad with amphetamines and LSD, and a little cannabis on top of that, and when I was really stoned I said, 'I want to see indigo now.' And as if thrown by a paintbrush, a huge pear-shaped blob of the purest indigo appeared on the wall.
"Again it had this luminous, numinous quality; I leaped toward it in a sort of ecstasy. I thought, 'This is the color of heaven.' ... I thought maybe this is not a color which actually exists on the Earth, or maybe it used to exist or no longer exists. All this went through my mind in 4 or 5 seconds, and then the blob disappeared, giving me a strong sense of loss and heartbrokenness, and I was haunted a little bit when I came down, wondering whether indigo did exist in the real world.
"I would turn over little stones. I once went to a museum to look at azurite, a copper mineral which is maybe the nearest [to] indigo, but that was disappointing. I did in fact have that experience again, but when I had it the second time, it was not with a drug, it was with music — and I think music can take one to the heights in a way comparable with drugs."
On hallucinations that accompany bereavement
"With any hallucinations, if you can do functional brain imagery while they're going on, you will find that the parts of the brain usually involved in seeing or hearing — in perception — have become super active by themselves. And this is an autonomous activity; this does not happen with imagination. But hallucination, in a way, simulates perception, and the perceptual parts of the brain become active. ... There's obviously a very, very strong passionate feeling of love and loss with bereavement hallucinations, and I think intense emotion of any sort can produce a hallucination."
On the hallucinations accompanying his migraines
"I usually get the zigzag, but I may also see lattice patterns, like tessellations; sometimes these lattice patterns seem to cover people's faces or a piece of paper I'm writing on. I mostly get complex geometrical patterns; I've never actually seen ... images with a migraine, although on at least on two occasions, I've had a smell — in particular a smell of hot buttered toast — with a strong sense that I was about 3 years old, being put in a high chair, and about to be given hot buttered toast. A sort of olfactory hallucination often goes along with recollection in that sort of way.
"The first time I got that, I was in hospital and I went searching for the toast. The second time, I was driving on the Bronx River Parkway, where there was obviously no toast to be had."
How visual migraines may have inspired ancient patterned art
"There are all sorts of complex geometrical patterns, very symmetrical, some of them looking like the finest doily. ... Patterns like this tend to appear in migraine, but they may also appear with fever. They also appear with various drugs. They may also be seen as one is falling asleep, and one can't help comparing them with various forms of ornamental art and cave art, and wondering whether individuals or cultures have been inspired by some of these patterns which are built into the nervous system." (Every time I close my eyes I see a new pattern in full color like the lining of a book cover or a piece of silk fabric. NS)
Dr. Sachs draws a line of differentiation between Imagination and Hallucination. I plan to read The Mind's Eye and his other book Hallucination.
